I've tried meditation, distraction, breathing exercises, focusing on the positive things in life.
But, I still worry.
I've asked God to help eliminate worry from my mental hamster wheel about a gazillion times.
I've recited Philippians 4:6-7 ("Do not be anxious about anything...") so many times, I might as well have it tattooed on my forehead.
But, I still worry.
I struggle with it, even though I know in my head that worrying doesn't change one. single. thing.
It can be about small things, like whether or not I kissed Payton goodbye before he left for school.
Or, it can be big things, like wondering if we'll have saved enough to pay for our kids' college someday... or if our kids will get into the college they want... or if they'll choose a school far away and I'll rarely get to see them... or God forbid, they go to FSU! (Just kidding... I'd love for my kids to go to school anywhere in Florida.)
But you can see how that train of thought led to many additional worries.
I don't want to "empty today of its strength" as the quote says above.
I want to treasure the good things that happen each and every day.
We all have things we struggle with. Worrying is what I struggle with most. But I am bound and determined to change it. I don't want my kids to grow up being worriers too because they learned the behavior from me. I want them to be strong and confident in their decisions and actions like they are right now.
In the middle of lunch yesterday, my 8-year old asked his friend, "Do you believe in Jesus?"
He had no fear. No worry. No anxiety of rejection or being laughed at. He just spoke his precious, God-loving thoughts to his friend.
The conversation that ensued led to a wonderful bedtime prayer last night for his friend to believe in God.
I think I can take a lesson from my 8-year old... do not worry; rather embrace this life that we've been given and just watch the bountiful blessings that occur.
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