Heavy Heart

Today was a good day for me personally.

We had some great family time this morning. Parker was in a particularly good mood all morning. He went to Miss Patty's house and created this adorable ornament (his first handmade Christmas ornament):

I got a ton of things accomplished while Parker was at Miss Patty's. I even treated myself to a pedicure (and boy, did I need it).

I came home, put Parker down for his nap, and ate lunch while I worked on the computer for a bit.

And then I got on the internet to place an order on Amazon and I saw the headline...

"27 Reportedly Killed in School Shooting, 18 are Children."

I started crying. My stomach is in knots. My head actually hurts. My heart hurts.

I cannot even fathom sending my precious child off to Kindergarten and then learning that a crazed person shot the entire class. What would a parent do with that kind of news? I cannot imagine.

My heart is so heavy right now. As if all the goodness and happiness of the day has been wiped away by the cruelty of the world.

Why?

How?

I want to cry out, "LORD! How could you let something like this happen?!?!?!?" But I know that God is crying out right now too. All of the evil in this world...it's too much to bare.

All I can do right now is pray.
Join me if you'd like...
Dear God,
I pray for the families of the loved ones who were senselessly murdered today in the Connecticut school shooting. Please let them feel your presence as they endure the unthinkable. Help them cope with the sadness, the pain, the anguish and the countless questions that will undoubtedly follow. Lord, please protect us. Our children. Our families. Our souls. Protect us from the evil in this world. Help us to know you better, and share your goodness with the world to help counterbalance all of the bad. I pray for these families and so many others who have experienced such loss. Help them dear God.
Amen.